Yesterday church was awesome for me. I have been struggling with several things lately that I just haven't been able to get into words. I have been angry and disheartened, struggling with things I just can't understand. So this was part of our scripture yesterday:

"17 Now if we are children of God, then we are heirs - heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in HIS Glory.
18 I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us." Romans 8

The whole chapter is amazing. Does it still hurt? Absolutely. God knows my heart, he knows my wants and needs. He knows what is best for my family even when I don't. When I can't even form words to pray He knows.

"26 In the same way the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.
27 And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will." Romans 8

I have a Dr's. appointment tomorrow. I guess I will see what he says and go from there.

I love pandemics!

Someone actually asked me yesterday if Micah has swine flu.

She was serious.

Micah has a cough. She coughs and coughs and coughs and coughs and I don't think she is ever going to stop. She coughed until she threw up at the park yesterday. That was loads of fun. I really hope she feels better soon. You can tell by looking at her she doesn't feel well. We are going to the Dr. today and hopefully they will give us some medicine that works. On Friday, they called a perscription in but it really isn't helping.

The other reason I want her to get better is totally selfish. The coughing is driving me a little insane. How horrible is that? I feel bad for her but it really is grating on my nerves. It drives me crazy when I hear people coughing repeatedly. Even when it is me. I can not stand that sound.

new swingset!

Our parents went in together and bought Micah a swingset for her birthday. My dad went to pick it up today and put it together for us. It is really neat. It has two swings, a glider, a slide and a little trampoline. I didn't figure she would get to play on it tonight because she was at her grandparent while Jeremy worked on the race car. They got home a few minutes ago, it was about 8:30, and she ran to the door and said, "Come watch me play!" So we went out and she jumped on the trampoline, swang on both swings, glided on the glider and went down the slide. Then she said "I'm going to start over!" So she did. I came in to get stuff ready for bed while she did her second round. As soon as she ran in the door she said, "That was SO AWSOME!" I'm glad she liked it and I am so glad she has something to play with in the yard other than the sand box. It's going to be a good summer!

I am struggling right now. What do you do when answers aren't coming? What do you do when no option seems like the right one? When every answer you do get is wait but you aren't sure what you are waiting for?

I have a giant child!!

We have known for awhile that Micah was tall for her age. People are always asking me if she is four. No, she is only three and her birthday was a little over a month ago. She had her three year check up today. These are her stats: she is 40 inches tall and weighs 36 lbs. That puts her in the 95th percentile for height and 78th for weight.

minty fresh toilet?

So yesterday I did some cleaning and used my new toilet cleaner for the first time. It is the same brand I always use but a different type, it was a two pack so it was cheaper. Well I squirt it in there and I start smelling spearmint. Who knew that toilets needed to smell minty fresh? I usually prefer the bleach smell that my old kind had, I know it is clean that way. And that my friends, is my random post of the day.

blogging what's that?

So I've had this blog for a while now. I am horrible at this. I am not good with words, I am not good at putting them down so why on earth did I think this was a good idea?