I'm about a week away from finding out if the clomid worked. I don't want to get my hopes up. There is actually hope and I really don't want my heart to break again. If we had kept going with the adoption classes next week would have been the last class I think. We could be waiting for that child as well. So that has something to do with it too. It is all just catching up with me. I watch my daughter with her baby cousins how good she is with them and my heart breaks and dances at the same time. I want her to be able to do that with a sibling. I know that in time God will give us another child I just have to remember that.

It's Christmas time again?

Yesterday afternoon we made our family Christmas plans. I have even started shopping. I never give in to the Christmas in November or October for that matter, but this year is different. I have no clue what to get anyone. I am completely blank. So I am trying my hardest to come up with something meaningful, something special, something that doesn't cost $600, something not a gift card for those that are important to me.