I'm about a week away from finding out if the clomid worked. I don't want to get my hopes up. There is actually hope and I really don't want my heart to break again. If we had kept going with the adoption classes next week would have been the last class I think. We could be waiting for that child as well. So that has something to do with it too. It is all just catching up with me. I watch my daughter with her baby cousins how good she is with them and my heart breaks and dances at the same time. I want her to be able to do that with a sibling. I know that in time God will give us another child I just have to remember that.