The Pitfalls of Blogging

I have noticed a trend with myself. I read everyones blog and think, 'well that's great. I know what's going on with them.' Which is sort of true but it isn't the same as actually talking or communicating in some way. I am going to try to do better about keeping in touch.

The good ones

There is an older couple at church that have become part of our family. Micah loves them and so do we. They have a granddaughter just a little older than Micah. Last year Micah went over to their house once a week to play and it was the highlight of her week.

So while we were at church tonight Micah threw a fit. She was down by her cousin and started to back up when I reached for her. I grabbed her dress, then picked her up and went to the nursery. We came back in later and I was embarrassed because of the way I got her and because of the way she was acting.

When church was over she came up to me and reminded me that I have to cherish this time because it won't last forever and that I am a good mother. She was comforting ME. She was making ME feel better. She lost her grandson three weeks ago. I should be doing those things for her but it was the other way around. These people have helped us out in so many ways. They are always encouraging us and are such Godly examples for us. I am very thankful to them for all they have done for us.

There are still good ones out there.

Disappointments

Over and over I hear about men who cheat on their wives, have affairs with students, get a prostitute, and so much more. Many times they are in positions of authority or someone who has been a roll model for me. I am tired of being disappointed. I am tired of letting it be ok for these things to happen. What happened to men who are faithful and trustworthy?

I was going to write this post last week but I didn't. But today I got a call today about yet another example and it made me mad. They don't think of the effects that this has on their family and friends or even to themselves.

So that is my vent for today.

A new Pappy

Micah got to go camping with Meme and Papaw last night. Several of their friends were there also, Melody, Dennis, Paul, Carol, Mamaw, Teresa and Mark. Micah gets to see Teresa and Mark quite a bit and really enjoys them. Last night she decided it would be easier to call Mark Pappy too. It's pretty funny. When we were ready to leave she yelled from James and Beverly's site over to Mark's, "I love you Pappy. BYE!"

Oh! I think it's great Micah has adopted them because they have an awesome camper. It's one of those BIG ones that is more like a bus. They camp in style that is for sure. Maybe we'll be invited one day... or not.

On a totally different note... We drove about an hour to one of my favorite restaurants, The Feed Mill. I love it. When I was pregnant with Micah I almost cried when we got there because I was so excited. Well I didn't love it tonight. I got sick there at the restaurant. I made it to the bathroom luckily and managed not to be loud or bust any blood vessels in my eyes. Both great achievements for me. Woo hoo! I am NOT loving my doubled dose of medicine.

random!!

I have a couple of kids at school that are random. They will come up to you and tell you whatever they have on their minds at the moment. As they walk away you just think huh?!?! Where on earth did that come from? So here are some of my random thoughts.

We had a visitor show up around 11:00 last night. It scared the poo out of me.

I went to the new Kroger today and I was a little overwhelmed. It isn't as big as Walmart but man do they have a lot of stuff. Micah got a little cart and I had to try to keep her from running over everyone including myself and I was very good at the last part. I will have bruises later.

I had to clean out my fridge after going to the store. I bought two gallons of milk and two things of o.j. What was I thinking? We will only be drinking milk, chocolate for me, for the next week or two I guess. It was really gross. That is probably the thing I hate to do the most.

I am very, very happy to not be keeping the kiddos any more. I am hoping this means Micah will stop talking like a baby, throwing tantrums and return to the little girl she was before.

We still have 3.5 weeks of school left! I am a little ticked about that.

I finally got my flowers planted yesterday no thanks to the kiddos. They look pretty good which is surprising since I bought them two weeks ago. I still need more it's a little plain. I am not sure what I am going to do.

It's nap time!!!


Well if you read through all of this I am sure that "HUH?" is not the only thing going through your head right now. Thanks for sticking with me.

Dr. appointment update

My doctor appointment went well yesterday. I actually feel like I'm getting somewhere now. He wanted to do a laparoscopy, an HSG (push dye through my tubs) and ovarian drilling. Next week! The only hitch is I DON'T HAVE $1000!!!! It's an insurance thing I am going to see if I can work out today. Since I don't have the money he is doing an IUI on my next cycle. I am very excited about it. I am praying this is the ticket.



One of the main things I have been feeling lately is guilt. So I expected to feel guilty for taking this step. I don't, all the guilt is gone. I had been feeling like this wasn't trusting God in some way. I had left to God to take of, it was just supposed to happen. Then I remembered that God works miracles in many ways. So this is our plan for now.

Yesterday church was awesome for me. I have been struggling with several things lately that I just haven't been able to get into words. I have been angry and disheartened, struggling with things I just can't understand. So this was part of our scripture yesterday:

"17 Now if we are children of God, then we are heirs - heirs of God and co-heirs with Christ, if indeed we share in his sufferings in order that we may also share in HIS Glory.
18 I consider that our present sufferings are not worth comparing with the glory that will be revealed in us." Romans 8

The whole chapter is amazing. Does it still hurt? Absolutely. God knows my heart, he knows my wants and needs. He knows what is best for my family even when I don't. When I can't even form words to pray He knows.

"26 In the same way the Spirit helps us in our weakness. We do not know what we ought to pray for, but the Spirit himself intercedes for us with groans that words cannot express.
27 And he who searches our hearts knows the mind of the Spirit, because the Spirit intercedes for the saints in accordance with God's will." Romans 8

I have a Dr's. appointment tomorrow. I guess I will see what he says and go from there.